Sometimes I wonder, if I just suddenly vanish from the face of earth, what difference does it make?

I asked my darling BB a question today. How if I suddenly go disappeared one day? What will she do...?

She told me she will follow me. Follow me to leave this online world together...

I'm sorry.

Sorry for having such a selfish thought.

But sometimes I really feel like leaving it like this.

I can't explain why. Nevertheless there is a covert in my heart.

And it makes me nearly CRAZY.

I'm so tired. Tired of running a role like this.
Tired of everything I had now.

Sometimes I will just think. Why am I doing these?
Shouldn't I doing several more meaningful besides by doing all these?

You can say I'm trying to use a chance to fade away from everything and everyone. Fade away from the role of being Shan and Ye Er.

I ain't myself...
And it sucks, it really does.

If I suddenly vanish, don't be sad.
But please remember, I still love you. =)


I will move on without you someday,
Only to realise I ain't myself...