Very few people take an instant to see the light. Others take longer, while some never.

Just now, I scrolled up my inbox reading the message you sent me, those printscreen of your words that u told me... And everything seems to dawn on me...

All along I had failed to realise my actions had been tiring you out. My constant stubbornness had been the reason for our meaningless quarrels.

I forgot the most important thing about our relationship. Love. It wasn't a battle of who's right and who's wrong, what's fair and what's not, who's dominant and who's submissive. It wasn't about "face" whenever we quarrel.

It was all about Love. It was all about getting along together through good and bad times. It was all about the things we ever shared. It was all about the feelings we had for each other.

Too many times we tiffed about insignificant little things that not only did not strengthened our bond, but made it weaker. We lost count how many times we quarreled about those small matters. You said I was the one who created all the unhappiness. And from what I can see now, it's all true.

As I read the messages and viewed the pictures one by one, I couldn't believe what I had done. Time and again I was pushing your limits, testing the love you had for me. Never once did I stopped and realised that there's a limit to everything, no matter how much love you felt for me.

Every time, I had always been the one causing all the conflict, starting the quarrels and breaking your heart. I must have hurt you really bad, for these incidents happen not only once, but too many a time till we both lost count.

Our quarrels would always end by you giving in. You would always be the one who make the first move and apologise to me for making me angry. You tried to comfort me by telling me alot of stuffs. But silly me never once realised, what I did broke your heart too. The times you apologised increased by the numbers, yet until now I can’t even recall a single time when I had been the one to give in and said sorry.

You told me to give you some time. You don't want me to think negatively. And you need my trust. But I failed to give u those. Yet I want you to do what I want perfectly. I want you to be mine all the time. I know you tried so hard... When all on my mind was nothing but negative thoughts, you were already sparing a thought for our love... I know it. And I know I made u feel tired and disappointed by chatting about those topics again and again...

I'm really sorry...

I must have been such an inconsiderate jerk. Please forgive me.

I want to apologise for everything I've done to hurt you.
I want to tell you I finally understood everything.
I want to show you the new me.
I want to be the best love you ever had.
I want to hold you in my arms and tell you how much I love you.

And NO. I won't give up easily this time.
I ain't gonna break down and admit defeat in this relationship.

I love you... That's everything =)


You're the reason my pulse is beating,
And there's no way I can live without you...